This man saved my life when I was a teenager. No exaggeration.
(Source: killingjars)
Remember the post on lucid dreaming? I found my old dream journal from high school. I’m reading through it for the first time in years, and I find it interesting and weird how much we had to personalize this for the assignment. Or maybe I just went a little overboard…
Front cover:
An anime-like self-portrait.
A Sharpie rainbow in the 7 of “70 sheets”.
A random sticker that says “omG!”
One of my bead lizards woven into the spine.
Duct tape covering up the name of the previous class that notebook had been used for.
Inside front cover:
My four favorite colors at the time done in Sharpie: red, orange, blue, black.
A photo of Gerard Way (this was about a month after “The Black Parade” came out, I think, so he had white hair) followed by “= <3”.
Photos of my two best friends at the time, each with half of a “best friends” sticker next to them, and the note, “We are the Three Musketeers.”
A list of my family members with a little note saying, “family pic?” (I guess I forgot one of my pictures. Oops. That must be the entirety of the reason why I only got a 93 on the assignment.)
A sad vampire smiley in lime green Sharpie that says “you make vamp smiley SAD.”
A very bad drawing of the logo I designed for a band in a fiction novel I had started writing in February of that year (2006).
Two photos of my room, followed by a caption saying, “Yeah, my room is orange. Wanna fight about it?”
The saying, “Silence is golden, but duct tape is silver,” written in fuchsia Sharpie.
An emotionless :-P smiley. (Not emoticon, but actual smiley.)
A happy vampire smiley.
A fortune cookie reading “Only you can decide what is important to you.” Next to it is written, “I’ve had this fortune saved for over 2 years. I don’t know why.”
A photo of me and three friends who were all in History Club plays together before they graduated (a year ahead of me).
For some reason, the chorus of ABBA’s “Waterloo” is in the corner.
Inside back cover:
All of these are various quotes. I even cited my sources, for most of them. I’m leaving in any bad grammar, spelling mistakes, notes and censoring.
~”I reject your reality and substitute my own.” - Adam Savage (“Mythbusters” host)
~”Look at me with my pretty bracelet and tiara… I’m a f—-in’ princess!” - Gerard Way (My Chemical Romance’s lead singer)
~”We are The Black Parade, and so are you.” - Mikey Way, My Chemical Romance
~”I am not afraid to keep on living. I am not afraid to walk this world alone. Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven. Nothing you can say can stop me going home.” - “Famous Last Words”, My Chemical Romance
~”They say all teenagers scare the living s—- outta me. They could care less as long as someone will bleed. So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose. Maybe they’ll leave you alone, but not me.” - “Teenagers”, My Chemical Romance
~ALL YOUR BASE ARE BELONG TO US.
~”Cool, we get to torture yogurt.” - Terry, “Mythbusters”
~”The world is a less violent place when people are using Hula Hoops.” - Mikey Way (My Chemical Romance’s bass player)
~”All my philosophies on life are things said by rockstars.” - Me (joking when I said this)
~”Lady, when you lose your ability to laugh, you lose your ability to think straight.” - Henry Drummond, Inherit the Wind
~”You’ve only had to run so far, so good. But you will come to a place where the only thing you feel are loaded guns in your face, and you’ll have to deal with pressure.” - “Pressure”, Billy Joel
~”I wouldn’t say Jamie’s an evil genius. I’m not sure he’s evil, and I don’t think he’s a genius.” - Adam Savage, “Mythbusters”
~”A light to burn all the empires, so bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be. In love with all of these vampires so you can leave like the sane, abandoned me.” - “The Sharpest Lives”, My Chemical Romance
~”I will avenge my ghost with every breath I take. I’m coming back from the dead. And I’ll take you home with me. I’m taking back the life you stole.” - “It’s Not A Fashion Statement, It’s A F—-ing Deathwish”, My Chemical Romance
~”Do or die, you’ll never make me, because the world will never take my heart. Go and try, you’ll never break me. We want it all, we wanna play this part. I won’t explain or say I’m sorry. I’m unashamed: I’m gonna show my scar. Give a cheer for all the broken. Listen here, because it’s who we are. I’m just a man, I’m not a hero. I’m just a boy who had to sing this song. I’m just a man, I’m not a hero. I - - DON’T - - CARE!” - “Welcome to the Black Parade”, My Chemical Romance
~”There is nothing more important than monkeys.” - Me
~”you’re just a sad song, with nothing to say, about a lifelong wait for a hospital stay. And if you think that I’m wrong, this never meant nothing to you.” - “Disenchanted,” My Chemical Romance
~”I see you lying next to me, with words I thought I’d never speak. Awake and unafraid. Asleep or dead…” - “Famous Last Words”, My Chemical Romance
Back cover:
My Chemical Romance’s name/logo around the time “The Black Parade” came out, done by me in red and black Sharpie.
Photo of all of My Chemical Romance.
An arrow pointing to the lizard on the spine, and a note saying “check out this lizard I made. Making stuff from beads calms me.”
(I may post photos of the front and back covers later. I will not be posting the inside front cover, as it has photographs of myself and people who would probably not want their photos on the internet. And the two best friends at the time are not people I want to be associated with, on the internet or otherwise.)
Looking back, there is no use denying it: everyone is fucking weird at the age of sixteen, no matter how cool or interesting we thought we were. (Or are, for those of you who are still sixteen.) For a certain period of our teenagers years, we all think duct tape and Sharpies are the coolest invention since the electric guitar, our favorite musicians are living gods, and anything that makes us sound like we’re cool or different is our personal philosophy for the day.
Lord, am I glad THAT phase is over…
